july 21

Why do I keep letting this date hypnotize me? It’s been so long, but I can’t just let it pass by without remembering. You know how it is, how some dates are just seared into your brain? How some dates just have an emotional relevance, even if the emotions they relate to have passed into … Continue reading july 21

hit (and run)

Wow. I am still trying to process what I just saw. I was pulled up at an intersection, waiting my turn… to turn… when two cars turned from the merge lane, one behind the other. Apparently the guy in the rear vehicle wasn’t pleased with the slow turn of the guy in front of him, … Continue reading hit (and run)


I’m a big believer in questioning things. Why am I doing this? Why am I going there? What’s the benefit from spending my time in these ways? I think I’m this way because of how it was for me growing up in a religion where I was never asked to question anything. Why is there … Continue reading ?

depressed much?

“How come you always write such depressing characters?” someone asked me once. They always ask this, because more than half of my characters have somehow decided to be depressing. I don’t always plan it out that way, but perhaps I’m averse to happy characters, or happy endings, or people who embody the sometimes joy of … Continue reading depressed much?


I remember 15, like a tickling in my ribs that I just can’t reach, though I feel it rather acutely. I saw a kid today, couldn’t have been more than 15. He was getting in the passenger seat of a vehicle, with some middle-aged guy in the driver’s seat. I am that middle-aged guy, although … Continue reading 15


I went out early this morning, on a shopping trip. I don’t do too many of those these days, for obvious reasons, but we needed some items, and as long as it’s early enough I don’t feel as anxious due to the smaller number of people within my personal range. Target was first, which was … Continue reading disconnected