January 2016 – Page 3 – Sam's Online Journal

January 11, 2016

What a Fantastic Death Abyss

“Paddy, will you carry me? I think I’ve lost my way. I’m already five years older. I’m already in my grave. I’m already…” ~The Hearts Filthy Lesson, David Bowie I met David Bowie in late 1995, at a time when I was a young adult trying to find my way in the world. That’s when … Continue reading What a Fantastic Death Abyss

January 10, 2016

Dear Journal: Staring at the Razor

Dear Journal, I got out the razor today. I stared at it for a couple of minutes, lost in thought, and then I replaced it exactly where it had been before. I do that sometimes, when I feel like I need a change, or if I just want to challenge myself to be tedious. The … Continue reading Dear Journal: Staring at the Razor

January 8, 2016

As Loud As It Goes

I like to listen to my music loud. You know, bass thumping, mind numbing, so loud I’m always waiting for my iPod to scold me for forcing it to vibrate so much. I’m that guy you stop next to at a red light and there’s a haze coming from my car it’s being shaken to … Continue reading As Loud As It Goes

January 6, 2016

N’est Ce Pas?

Like a good boy, I took French my final two years of high school, and I took to the language of love like a fish to water. Even though I had never even looked a language other than English for the first sixteen years of my existence, somehow it made sense to me in a … Continue reading N’est Ce Pas?

January 5, 2016

Lost in Code

The television speaks in code In a language immeasurably low Like a competitive humming Vibrating from the inside out This conscious exhalation A paranoia born of consequence As if they’re all watching me Waiting for the resignation That comes before the night When the mix of color and light Play hide and seek in shadows … Continue reading Lost in Code

January 3, 2016

Learning to Expect

“I learnt early to have little expectation so I protected myself from ever feeling greatly disappointed.” ~Natalia Vodianova Cover your ass. Look out for number 1. Protect ya neck. All sayings for the same general thing — being sure that selfishness plays a part in whatever you do. I think of Asimov’s 3 Laws of … Continue reading Learning to Expect