Personal

It’s not personal
It’s just… happenstance
Just a conflagration of circumstance and need
Rolled together
And pressed flat
Fighting for position
In this rather tangled mind
And it’s not about you
You with your hyper ambivalence
All just put on for show
In your push and pull mentality
That conscious constant need
For understanding
When you don’t know yourself
The yin and yang
Walking single file
Kindergarten style
Because that’s all you know
It’s all coincidence
The sharing of this soul
It could have been anyone
Dancing in my shoes
With those Saturday blues
Threatening to overflow
The more I try to convince myself
The further I get from the truth
And the essence of me and you
That trial by fire mentality
That laissez faire feel
When it’s twisting me inside
Struggling to escape
To break the self-bound chains
That tell me it’s not personal
The look in your eyes
Fixing me to the spot
Calling me baby
Even though I’m not
Not anymore.