“What I wear like church clothes you wear like jewelry. All the simple things you revel in, they just suffocate me.” ~Matt Nathanson I remember dressing up on Saturday mornings, pulling on my starched pants, crisply ironed shirt, dress socks, belt, and clip-on tie. They would be laying there spread out on the bed in … Continue reading Like Church Clothes
“Sometimes you put up walls, not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”
We all put up walls, whether or not we realize it. Perhaps it’s in a new situation where we know we’re going to be judged by others, or maybe it’s because we don’t want to be seen as vulnerable. Other times we put up those walls to protect ourselves from the harsh nature of the world, or because we’re just afraid. Fear is the biggest reason we put up walls: fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, fear of change, and ultimately even fear of ourselves. We think that if other people saw us for who we really are, not only would it expose us to them, but if they reject us, they’re rejecting US, not just some facade we put up that we felt would be acceptable.
From the time I was very little I learned how to put up walls. First, it had to do with my family and the fact that everyone judged us from the moment we woke up to the moment we went to bed, and maybe even into the night, but I didn’t know about it because I was sleeping. The reasons were many. Continue reading “Breaking Down Walls”
The face we show the world depends on who is part of our own personal world at the moment. Do you ever wonder how the same person can be described as introverted and shy by one person, and at the same time also called gregarious and outgoing by another? Or how when you first become … Continue reading The Masks We Wear
You know, I can’t generally go even a day without hearing something about people being fake. They get together in clumps, lower their voices, and discuss the endless march of the plastics. Usually the conversation goes like this: Person A: I am so through with him. He’s so fake. Person B: You said it. You … Continue reading March of the Plastics
Since when did I become such an emotional person? Since when do sappy romantic comedies make me bawl my eyes out? Since when does something like stubbing my toe elicit such a string of obscenities? I used to be so even keel until not too long ago when I developed a — gasp — actual … Continue reading Whereupon I Reveal Some Things