Sam's Online Journal

July 10, 2013July 10, 2013

38 Floors

My heart dropped about 23 floors when she looked at me this morning with those soulful brown eyes and said, “I want you to stay.” And I know I haven’t been around as much lately. That’s the glory of working two jobs, and being gone most of the day. And that time between paychecks isn’t the easiest time either, because I know I’m working the two jobs for a reason, but it’s easy to forget that reason when I see those soulful brown eyes only once in two days, looking at me, saying, “I want you to stay.” Continue reading “38 Floors”

July 9, 2013July 9, 2013

The Trees Have Faces

The trees around here have faces. I had never seen that before, outside of science fiction movies, and in those cases the trees also had personalities and were animate. These trees not so much. And yet they still have faces. I recall the first tree I saw with a face was right next door, but … Continue reading The Trees Have Faces

July 8, 2013July 8, 2013

Standing in the Rain

I am standing in the driving rain, waiting for a taxi that will probably never come. That’s what she said to me over the phone on the night she died and I ceased living. I am standing here, she said, soaked to the bone and wishing I was back home. With you. And I remember … Continue reading Standing in the Rain

July 7, 2013July 7, 2013

Passing the Buck

“It wasn’t me.”

That’s the most commonly used expression in the world, didn’t you know? When a mother asks her oldest child who knocked over the lamp, that’s what she gets in response. When a coach asks his star player who was responsible for the team losing the game, the player usually gives this response. When your boss asks you who forgot to send that email to corporate, that phrase is probably on the tip of your tongue, whether it was your fault or not. And that’s where the problem comes in.

If no one saw you do it, then it wasn’t you. Who can prove it anyway? It’s all about what is commonly called “passing the buck.” Continue reading “Passing the Buck”

July 6, 2013

The Power of Perseverance

“If life held no difficulties, we would never know what it was to persevere.” – Theodicus, 1798

You’ve heard it probably a million times: Practice makes perfect. Or: Try, try again. Or: You can do anything you set your mind to. Sometimes you believe it, and other times you roll your eyes so much they slide back into your head (ouch!), but your reaction usually depends on how your week has been going. If you’ve had a wonderful week, then you believe in perseverance paying off, but if your week has been horrendous, you are more prone to eye rolling histrionics.

Throughout it all, though, one thing remains true. If you learn from your mistakes you are better off than if you just keep making mistakes and never changing your patterns. That one is undeniable, even if you’ve never learned from any of your mistakes, because it just means you’re the one who doesn’t change, who doesn’t improve. Continue reading “The Power of Perseverance”

July 5, 2013

Your Name

I know your name It used to be as close As my own It kissed my lips And stayed for a while Not uninvited, but safe Secure in the invisible But that’s trust To fall without looking Hands in the air Slipping away Because you’re not here And I’m left wanting A name split in … Continue reading Your Name

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