Vicarious Joy

people-smiling“They say misery loves company. We should start a company and make misery. Frustrated, Incorporated.” – Soul Asylum

The first time I heard that song I was eighteen years old, fresh out of high school but with no clear idea of what the future held. Honestly, I still don’t know, but back then it was so murky I was worried it would never resolve itself into the picture I hoped it would show, a successful man who took life by the horns and made it do his bidding. So, I identified with the lyrics of that song, as frustrated as I was back then. Of course at 18 we are all usually so unfocused and despondent about life, having just completed one phase and being caught in the limbo between that one and the next.

And then I would see everyone else going about their lives looking happy, walking from place to place with steady strides that told me they were going places, that they were happy, that they knew so much more about themselves and their destinations than I would ever know about mine. Continue reading “Vicarious Joy”