Brotherly Love and Sisterly Affection

This one’s a classic.

When I was young, I couldn’t stand my sister, Joy, for a multitude of reasons. First, she was older than me, so she felt like she could lord it over me from sunup till sundown. Secondly, she was outgoing so she made friends easily, which was something I was hard-pressed to do. In fact, my only real friend from birth until eighth grade was one boy who I thought felt sorry for me, or some of my sister’s friends who also seemed to feel bad for me.

Because she was older than me (by fifteen months), Joy was always in the grade ahead of mine, and because we went to a small school where each grade level was taught by one teacher, she would always get the same teachers right before I got there. And saying that Joy was good in school was a massive understatement. I lost count of all the times, on the first day of each school year, when the teacher would look at me, look at my last name on the sheet, and have this look on his/her face that said, “Oh, you’re HER brother!” Then, when I wasn’t as motivated as she was, they would shake their heads and make tsking sounds, like I had disappointed them. Continue reading “Brotherly Love and Sisterly Affection”

Isolated Moments

Life is a series of moments, strung together and laid out flat. If you paused for a second and looked at each one individually it would be like frames in a cartoon flip book. Each one looks slightly different from the one before it and after it, but you wouldn’t be able to tell unless … Continue reading Isolated Moments

Halfway to a Thousand

I remember when I got my first car, and no, it wasn’t at 16 when half the people I know got theirs. It wasn’t even when I turned 18, or 21, which coincidentally was when I got a car, but it was never truly mine. No, the car I’m referring to was an “old person” … Continue reading Halfway to a Thousand

Shifting Gears

I shifted gears Drive to neutral Neutral to drive In blurry motions Trapped in the space Between 0 and 60 Repetitive Dangerously real Consequence moving Fast and hard Like throwing dice And coming up snake eyes Engine revved Purring smoothly But ineffective As I used to be Before the fall Prior to this A moment … Continue reading Shifting Gears

My Obituary

I wrote my own obituary once as an assignment for school and it was an exercise in futility. It was supposed to show me what I really wanted to do with my life and what really mattered to me. The problem, as you’ve probably already guessed, was that it was a construct, and I knew … Continue reading My Obituary